Here and there

Giornate piene e stancanti. Giornate che passano tra tirocinio, studio (ci proviamo!) e qualche pensiero che si fa strada di tanto in tanto e poi rifiuta di essere scacciato.
Everything has been so tiresome lately and well, my silly and obstinate mind doesn't allow me to move free here and there, it just remember me how everything is difficult and confused and silly.
I would like to leave, no matter where, no matter how, just leave and go. It would be wonderful to move free from place to place, without bonds, without thoughts, without the wish to be in a different place.
I'm messing everything and I know it, but it is the only way I can act now, with all this confusion in my mind. It is something not really comprehensible and actually nobody seems able to understand how I feel... But I'm in trap: I can't move on and I can't come back.
And the harder I try to ger rid of these chains, the harder they seems to tighten me.
I am so tired and life...
...life is a really bad joke.